13 October 1944

Friday

Darling Mine,

Here we are early in the morning again and I have my thoughts entirely with you. I want to get this letter off before the day starts for my mood rapidly deteriorates as the day progresses. I tried to write you yesterday but as I sat down to do so I found that my mood would not allow me to write decently or enjoyably so I had to postpone it it. Forgive me darling for I know you would like to have some mail and after our glorious three days together that mail is much in order.

I am now fully on my new job an, honestly my dear I am completely confused and befuddled. Not from the work to be done but for the fact of being here. The two days that I have been around and if my opinion is any good I am now occupying a job for a ground officer with a year or twos experience and of the rank of Capt. Or Major. I cannot understand it and my morale is certainly at its lowest end of my whole career. Certainly fate or luck will come along to rescue me. I know that you do not wish to hear my griping and I guess that it will do little good so I shall stop and speak of better things.

I have done nothing since returning and have really felt little like doing anything. The movies as usual and a talk or two with Geo. He has laid off the kidding after he found out how I really felt. I think that I told you his reaction when the job he had hopes of was filled. I have heard nothing from Ken as yet and have some vague rumors to the effect that there are some changes due there just recently made known to them that would forestall my being considered due to a downward trend in strength. That sounds very logical from what I already know so I am not holding out any hopes. That is not beyond just plain hoping for no reason at all.

I am anxious to get your first letter and see what kind of a trip that you had returning, Did you get “bumped” darling and if so for how long and how many times an where. Also what day did you get out of P----. I know that after all it felt good to get back into your own place and among your own things. Tosh I wish that I could have spent some time there with them and you. I suppose that it is getting cool there now and pleasant every evening. Do you have the llama blankets out as yet. Please don’t forget the uniform at Orlando for that is my only one fit to wear but then I guess that you have already cared tor that. Thanks.

I have been inquiring about that jewelry we say and the stuff is made in Venezuela alright and doesn’t run as sheep as I though it would. That is really twenty four karat gold. I am going to try to see what I can do and will also look around for a couple of the trinkets that you though you might like for Xmas present for some of our friends. I will also try to get them to you before the middle of November. Will that be soon enough. Also if you think of anything let me know.

Darling I am still living our few days together and it is a real comfort to me. I have already told you how much I enjoyed it though I must admit that it also added to my disappointment for I wanted it to continue as we had planned. Each time that we are together it certainly strengthens that bond between us and it always seems so much better and closer each time. I love you very much my dearest and so appreciate its return by you. It will certainly help me last out this bad spot I am in at the present.

The emergency that caused the cancelation and my leave and the quick return here am on the lookout for. I think from the way things look that it is pure fantasy and in the final analysis just plain and simple lack of consideration. But then I guess one can expect that however I learn from it if I ever get in the same position I will remember how I felt.

Sweetheart I must close now and start pushing the paper. A war can be fought without funs by using clubs but I seriously doubt that it could be done without paper and typewriters. I send my love and devotion dearest and will try to write gain soon.

Edwin