August 23, 1942
Friday Evening
Dearest Jane:
Well sweet,
how are you feeling today? I hope you are fine. As for myself I can’t say much.
I have just been told that I can’t get a furlough. So you can imagine just
about how bad I feel. I have done everything I could even went
to see the Colonel myself and caught the devil for doing it. They just won’t
give me a furlough. We start maneuvers Monday and they won’t give passes or
furloughs for any reason.
Honey I
want you to write Colonel Smith and ask him why after he promised that I can’t
get a furlough. That’s about the lowest damn trick a person could pull. He said
I was such a good soldier and a Sergeant at that. Well I am going to take the
stripes and tell them to go to the devil. They can make me stay in the army but
they can’t make me do any thing. I at least don’t have to wear their stripes.
Darling you
have no idea how much it is hurting me. It’s just about more than I am able to
stand. I have gone ahead and did my best and tried to be a good soldier but
this just lits the bottom out from under me. I have
stood things that are unfair and did the best I could but I can’t go any
farther. It seems this army tries to break a man down instead of make a man out
of you. All those things I write remember and with god as my witness some one
is going to hear about it when I get out.
Sweet will
stop now, as I can’t write any more at present. Please please
honey talk care of yourself and remember I am with you
with my heart and soul even though not physically.
All my
love darling
Clive
P.S. Tell mother I will send the
money back when I get it.
Dear Mother:
I guess
Jane has told you by now that they won’t give me a furlough. I did all I could
and they wouldn’t do it. Said it wasn’t necessary. The only chance left is for
some one is
And mother you wonder why I feel
that I don’t owe this country a thing, why should I? There’s nothing fair and
democratic about it and that’s what we are supposed to be fighting for. But if
ever I get out of this army I don’t ever want any one to mention the
Mother I am
sorry to write this but it’s what I feel and always will.
Will close
now as I can’t write any more now. Tell Dad and Sybil hello for me and take
care of Jane and don’t let her feel too bad about me not coming.
All my love,
Clive.