Sept. 27, 1944
Dear Jackie
Well, how
goes it by now? I’m sure all night, but I thought I would inquire. Some of
these sergeants are chosen because of special abilities to harass and torment,
you know, but usually they are well-meaning souls. Usually, I say.
You see, I have
been reading your letters to Mrs. Carlson, who by the way, is down tonight with
a sick headache. But we think she is all right. Peggy is going over to see.
Don’t let this alarm you. She is all right. I think she has just worked herself
into a state because of
I was pretty sure
that this war would cost us our oldest boy when it started in
War is a cruel,
coercive thing. It destroys human values as well as industrial plants, etc. It
does things to us no matter whether we are in uniform or not. The young women
who want to join up (I neither blame nor praise them) won’t escape it. You, now
that you are in the service, will see a little of it, I dare say. But you are
stronger or you wouldn’t be where you are, and there is a source of strength in
the knowledge that you are right. Just don’t get confused and bewildered. I am
sure you will be all the stronger because of your service. But you needn’t
expect to make sense of all that is happening in and to the world. Just rely on
old ideas. They are still good.
I’m a little
soft, Jackie. Else I wouldn’t be writing to you in this fashion. But when Mary
Morgan, then you, began talking of enlisting, these are the things I wanted to
say, but could not then.
Greed is the
fundamental cause of it all. Greed killed a boy without a vicious impulse in
him, for us. Greed will kill many more. I am bitter. This business of
being proud of a casket with a flag on it is not the kind of thing I go for.
I don’t know
whether Mrs. Carlson has told you any details or not. Dudley was one of five
men killed when his plane refused to take off at Scott Field, near (practically
in)
We are all right.
Don’t give it a thought. Go on about your business. You’ve got a job ahead of
you. Accept a little of the courage these fellows leave us when they die, and
carry on, soldier.
I am
including a picture of him. If this bothers you, Jackie, throw it away. You
didn’t know him, and after all, he is only one of many. But he was the one for
me. I am proud of his fine sensitive courage, not his death. That’s damnable. But, how I
hate the thing that killed him. Dud, wouldn’t like me to write like this
about him. (I’m out of paper and am not at the cabin!) Write about yourself.
Yours,
Zell F. Mabee